still supporting my family even though the pandemic's technically over and people can go to work.
not sure how long I can put up with this but I feel like I have no other choice.
I don't want to see my parents. so I get anxious everytime I HAVE to see them.
sounds bad but can't help but feel sad+betrayed+angry+annoyed at their situation. the fact that they're old but never really made the most of what they have.
maybe because I'm now at the same age they were when they got together and had me so I now have memories of how they were back then.. toxic to each other, poor financial choices, and playing the "martyr" character - helping others but not really doing anything to improve their own life.
re-parenting myself right now to try and deal with my situation without going insane.